Just came back frm a long day outside..
Was out since around 7am..
Today was maths paper 2..
Soso la..
Just hope i pass lor..

After the paper..
Went with a group of frens to eat nasi lemak at somewhere nearby bugis
Den we went to bugis street walk walk..
Still da same..
No changes..
Except for we went to early most shop were close..

Den after tat they wanted go to this place call Haji lane..
But din noe how to go there..
So we ask around..
End up all the ppl giving us different directions..
So nvm..
After thinking awhile..
I realise the name is malay street name..
N the nearest malay streets was at kampong glam..
So went there to find..
End up 1st street found le..
Not bad ar our luck..
Hmm..The street like old fasion de..
But the shops all very stylish de..
I think the prices of clothes even more STYLISH..
But it was still too early tat little shops were open..
So we end up taking photos..
Rofl right..
But the street was really a good background for photo taking..
Spend like i think got 1 hr or more there lor
just taking photo..
*now lazy to upload*

After taking till we sian liao..
Den they wanted go Lavender buy stuff..
So we walk all the way frm kampong glam to lavender..
Which wasnt tat far after all..
At least my sense of direction works after all..
I tot it din when i couldnt see any familar landmark..
But we made it there..
Dunno wads the place call la..
A place which sells mostly Army n camping stuff..
But i saw some nice clothings down there too..
Maybe some other time will go there n buy those clothes..
Den we slack at the hawker centre below it..
Den we decided go our separate ways..

After tat..
I was suppose to meet ken n hanisah for pool n dinner..
Den i din want to ps her..
Coz like nobody wan eat dinner..
So i ask her along with us lor..
Den went to the riverside indonesian seafood to eat..
Quite ok la..
Each around $10++ nia
Den we walk to pool fusion to play pool..
All 4 of us played..
Overall my team won..
Wahahahha..=x

Kk..Den we went home..
After tat somethings happen..
Dun wan to go in details..
And after i reach home i cleared my mind..
So wad happens frm now on..
Will depend on luck ba..

Tats all for today..tata..

Labels: It is still the same..just back to point 1..haha..

1:27 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Hmm..Gonna make a short post n off to work..
Today..i had 3 papers..English p1, p2 n maths p1
Went to sch like 1 hr early la..
My dads estimation dam jialat la..
Aiyo..nvm..
At least no need ownself go sch..
Anyway..I put 101% for my english le..
I gave it all my best tat i can think..
I think should be able to get a B4 ba..
For maths..
I din do 17marks worth of qn..
Jialat..
Nvm..Tmr i must score in paper 2..

After my papers.. i met my mum at rc to eat hab some snacks @ Starbucks
Den after i went home myself..
Slept awhile..
N i m awake now..
For now..I gonna get to work le..

There is still tat qn in me..
Should i or should i not?
R u testing me?
Or avoiding me?
I really wan to noe..
Haiz..

Labels: Wad must i do to win ur heart?

9:53 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Posting once again..
Today din study at all..
I gotta start on my maths le..
If not i sure fail again..
Haiz..
Too many things in my mind as usual la..

Nobody can help me out de..
Sian..
It will be so gd if i could read minds ar..
Den dun nid so stressed up to think of wad other ppl is thinking..

Today..
Suppose to meet my maths teacher..
But i overslept..
So din go..
Sian..
I m confused right now..
Wad should i do..
I cant even focus on doing work..
Keep saying wan to do..
End up nv do at all..

I think i should start to do now le ba..
The thing in my head..
Can be solve..
But results maybe bad if i m unlucky..
Yeah..
So should i solve it or not?
I oso dunno..
Wahahaha..
If she can at least give me some signs..
Den i wun hab to think so much le..

Ok ba..see how things go ba..
I m off to study le..

Labels: Ask or dun ask?

9:58 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..posting again..
Just woke up nia..
Just now came home after a long day den lie on bed K.O le..
Frm 8 plus slp till now..
Wahahaha..

Today..Went to Jurong study..Not Birdpark hor..
Went to fren hse..
1st time i been so deep into tat area sia..
But now even u leave me there..
I still will get lost de..
Lol..
Singapore really not dat small ar..
Still got places i so stranger to..

Hmm..I went there around 10am liddat..
Den we went to eat Mac..
After tat went to buy some snacks n go her hse..
Kinda study abit abit ba..
N dunno y the stupid time move so fast sia..
Awhile nia den a few hrs gone le..
Den dunno somebody..say study study..
Den end up slping down there..
LOL..
ok la..had quite a fun day..
Den after tat end up playing maple awhile..
Dk just too nice to play..
Rofl..
Some 1 play till late to meet fren for dinner..
Den i went home went she met her fren..
On the train to outram..
I slp all the way sia..
Damn song..
But still tired la..
Den at outram wanted go to harborfront to get a lift frm my dad back home..
Who noes i at outram take wrong side the train..
Den nvm lor..come back myself..
Came home liao i on come..
Den use awhile..
Dunno y internet just now so laggy..
Den i restart com..
Den while rs i lie on bed awhile..
End up fall asleep..
Wahahah..

Yeah..Tats kinda my day today..thx for the fun day..u noe who u r..

Labels: Should i or should i not? confused..

12:02 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..Today went to sch take Geo paper..
I think for the Geo n Chem i was dam heng..
All i noe den come out..
All i dint noe de all dint came out..
Maybe was just lucky ba..
Hahaha..

Today talk to tat 1 person almost most part of the day..
I feel like a bad person to tell her to breakup with him..
But i really feel tat he isnt treating her as was she deserve to..
As a fren i dun wan see her continue to suffer on..
But i believe if he do something meaningful..
Sure can make her soft de..
Wahaha..See if he wan to make the effort lor..
I noe u sure will be reading de..
But dun care i still wan to say..
Although u all together 1 week nia..
But i can see tat u really put quite alot of hopes on him initially de..
Dun sad le k..*even though u dun show tat u r..i can see..*
If he meant to be urs it will ok..
U still got ur frens n me ur jiemei ma..ROFL..
*Sian diao become ah gua liao*

Hmm..Today break record for eating the least for i think the past 1 yr ba..
Ate 1 bread n half a ham the whole day..
Now i make the same thing again..
But i eat 1 bite i lost appetite again..
I oso dunno y..
Just all sort of different feelings passing thru me ba..
My time seems to crawl by sec by sec..
While i look at other ppl's de passing so fast..

I still got 3 papers of maths to do..
Haben even started..
I cant get myself to do..
My mind too stuffed with things le..
WAhaha..
Ok la.. Post till here for now lor..

Labels: What should i do?

9:06 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Back after a long day..
Now super tired..
But i gotta study for my geo..
Even though its buang 1..
But i wan try lor..

Today Chem..
Got confident..
Same confident as my N lvl de..
At the end got A2 for it..
Song bo..
Now see Physics le..

ok la..
Today..Went to sch take chem..
Den after tat met hanisah n ken play pool @ lucky plaza aka maid paradise again..
Quite fun..
Of course fun la..
I win ma..
Lose liao no fun le..
Den on train i standing still can doze off..
Dunno y la..
Too tired le..

Tats my day..
Better go le..
Some 1 rushing me..
wahaha..

Labels: Lady luck r u back?

9:59 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..tmr O's chem paper..
Kinda nervous sia..
So i will do a quick post n go back to study..

Today..Woke up around mid day..
N started reading chem txbook..
Now doing 10 yr series..
Lol..
I think can make it la..

My life like kinda boring sia..
Everything do the same things de..
Like no colour at all..
Every time i slp..
I make the same dream abt this 2 person..
Dunno y la..
It will be nice if wad is in my dream really come thru..
Wahah..
I siao already..

Hope all these stuff just finish fast..
I really got alot of stuff i wan to do after my O's sia..
I really wonder if anybody even bother to read my blog sia..
The tag box like not active 1..
Sian diao..

Ok la..
Go back studies le..
Any body very very weak in science n taking O's..
Can call me..
I will try to help..

Wow..I really type fast sia..
I type all those in less den 5mins..
Lol..

*Gone*

Labels: Come back to me pls lady luck..

7:02 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Hmm..Nth to do..
So came n post before i go "study"..
O's 1st written paper starting in 2 more days..
Guess wad..
Actually i havent even prepared for the 1st paper..
Haiz..
Time just passed too fast..
So fast O's starting liao..

Did some thinking today..
As well as look at some Old photo..
Realise tat was quite lucky last time..
Actually i was very lucky last time..
Ok la..wad past is past liao..
And she made a good choice for her future..
If she was still with me..
I would hab ruined her future again..

I really dun see any future frm me le..
All i did was say i wan get good grades for O's..
But i din even put the effort to do it..
haiz..
I feel tat this yr would be worst den last ba..
At least last yr i got her to study with..
This yr i got nobody..
Hopefully i can make it thru ba..

Hmm..i gonna stop here for now ba..
Just came to get things off my chest..
I noe u will be reading this..
Just wan to let u noe..
Everything i write here is wad i feel..
I hab no means to get ppls' pity or whatsoever..
N thx for intro me to blogging..

Labels: Will i fail again?If yes..I really m a failure in everything..

8:01 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

oh ya..i forgot..
Aiai u wan see my new shoe rite..
here is the pics..

11:20 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..today was pool siao day..
Went to eat lunch n play pool at kovan with ken in the afternoon..
After tat ken went off le..
Den I went to meet up with steven n sz at ms to play pool again..
Wanted to challenge my teacher ma..
At de end still lose to him..
we played 8 match..i win 1 nia..
Wtf la..
I not his standard yet..
Gotta train more after O's..
Den we went to eat dinner at this jap pasta restaurant at ms..
Not bad la..
But abit pricey lehz..
Den we walk around awhile den take bus home..
Dats kinda my day today..

Kinda moody the whole day too..
Even though i dun put it on my face..
Guess the only 1 tat realise was steven..
Coz he noe i not concentrating in pool..
I feel so tired today coz i got alot things in my mind..
I so feel like sleeping n forget abt everything..
I dunno wad i should do with my life now..
I m confused..

I like suddenly lonely again..
I dun blame my frens..
They got their own commitment..
My luck oso not back yet..
Do everything oso suay lehz..
Hope it will come back soon ba..
I m dying inside le..
I m now like a body without a soul le..

Ok..Enough said..
dunno wad to say le..

Labels: Wad is destiny? Wad is fate?

10:53 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Hmm..just back frm outside..
Today went a few places..
1st..i met gk for maths tuition @ J8 in the afternoon..
Den after tat met up with ken..
To go keppel club for my mums bday celebration..
With her frens
haha..
Actually we go coz there gt 1 pool table..
All for us to play for the whole nite..
Dam song la..
But too bad only 7ft..
Drink some alcohol while i was there..
1 Tequila Sunset n 2 cups of beer..
Quite nice lehz..
Maybe wad some1 said was correct..
When life is bitter den will like to drink bitter stuff..

After all tat all of us went home lor..
Den it was like 1am..
So ken stayed over at hse..
n ya..he is with me right now..
haha..

Yeah..horoscope wasnt jun again for today..
Was expecting something different..
But i guess luck isnt at my side ba..
All celebrating here n there..
Feel happy for all of them..
Coz all my frens ma..
wahaha.
Still got alot things in my head..
Hab to get rid of it by mon..
If not this time exam sure buang again 1..

Ok ba..post till for now lor..
Time to play games!!

Labels: When is my luck going to change?or did i used it all up?

2:34 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..blogging again..

Hmm..today went to play pool n billiard with ken, hanisah n gab..
Jialat la my pool..
Lose him 2 match..
Waahah..
I wan blame it on coz i nv warm up..
But nvm..
Good players r always rdy de..
No need warm up..
Will practice more de..
Going to beat all my frens..
Wahahaha..
Nvm i beat 2 of them in billiard..
wahaha

After tat..went to eat ljs at macdonald hse(but there is no mac there)
Den went to heeren walk walk..
Den saw this nice Nike AF1..
1 dat catch my eyes..
Hmm..its was like $119 nia..
quite cheap ba..
But at the back bo the TICK(new AF1 no tick le at the back)
So we went to look for got TICK de..
So we decided go to far east see more shoes..
Go to there..all the design oso bo catch my eyes..
Den the worst thing is there isnt tat design there..
Den we rmb tat Taka got 1 nice design i said i wanted awhile ago..
Coz its green..just y i wan buy..
But..At the end..
Realise OSO BO TICK..WTH..
Den so ex $148..
Den the design soso nia..
Den nvm lor..we went back Heeren de..
DEN THEY TELL ME NO MORE SIZE..
Nowonder so cheap la..
Den wanted buy other design..
The nxt cheapest range was like $169 at the store..
The design all soso nia..
So din buy frm tat store lor..
Den we rmb that at heeren oso got nike shop..
Selling tat shoe..
Den went there..
Guess WAD..
OSO LAST PIECE..
but heng is my size..
wahaha..
Abit more ex..
$129..
Coz from $180 - 30% de..
So like my freaking shoes now..
Damn swee..

After tat..we went to lucky plaza aka maid's paradise to eat mac..
Go out with ken..
Cfm eat till fat 1..
Always hungry de him..
Eat liao den we went home by mrt frm there ba..
Tats all for today ba..

Hmm..Was actually kinda moody in the early part of the day..
Coz of multiple probs floating in my head..
I keep thinking i really like dam dumb n dint take the chance ba..
Or maybe i was just dreaming there was 1..

Oh ya..
If u r reading this..
Sry i din pei u go for lessons today..
U noe who u r ba..
I din go coz of some reasons ba..
some reason tat shouldnt be said..

Tats all for today..Tata guys..

Labels: I really want you..haiz

12:42 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..just back frm pract..
Kns posted to Tanglin Sec..
West coast road..
Took me 1hr+ to get there..
Den dunno who tell me need protractor n 30cm ruler all those..
Den i go buy in the morning..
At the end..
THEY PROVIDE..
WTF LOR..
Damn dulan lehz..
Nvm..At least got confident tat will do well..
Even though i nv finish my chem part..
Coz the physic part so tedious..
But should be able to get all correct for physic part ba..
So is it Zinc(II)Carbonate or Calcium(II)Carbonate..
I dunno la..
Coz i no time finish the last test..
So i is guess de..
I think is Zinc(II)Carbonate..
Who think confident correct de..
Can leave the ans in my tag box..

Hmm..after tat went home liao..
Took the stupid bus 147 from clementi to serangoon..
Sit till i seh liao..
Okok la..
Quite a bored day..
No where to go after tat..

Glad tat u r happy now ba..
Even though i said alot time le..
But i really feel happy seeing u happy..
Even though i m lonely..
But its ok..

Hmm..for now all my hopes r gone..
Lost everything liao..
Time after time..
I use wrong method to chase a gal..
Wad a failure hor..
Got chance dun take..
Nvm la..
No hope for now le..

Waahhah..Finish downloading bleach le..
Finished in 8mins..
Wow..haha..

Ok ba..post till here today ba..

ANYBODY WAN CHALLENGE POOL CALL MY HP

Labels: My hearts full of probs..Haiz

4:25 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..just kinda woke up..
Dunno y cant wake up in the morning..
Felt so tired n lifeless the whole day..
WAhahaha tmr science pract..
This yr special..
my chem got confidence but physic bo..
Coz today nv go for the lab practice..
Kinda going out to meet frens now..
But nvm..I say finish i go out..

Hmm..I noe things was hard for u..
U din like somethings i do but i still did it..
I already apologise since tat day le..
Thats all i can do for now..
But if u think i like u coz of tat only..
Den u r wrong ba..
It was nv intended to be..
U should noe me well ba..
I already tried to change at the last part le..
But it was too late le..
Or maybe there wasnt a time at all..

I oso dunno wad to say le..
It looks like u still haben forgive me ba..
But nvm..I dun expect u to forgive me..
I will just hope u will ba..
All the time we were together..
I was true to u ba..
Believe it or not..
Its up to u..

I noe u r not tat time easy to forgive n forget de..
But at least for ur frens..
They already apologise for encouraging u with me le..
Hope u say wad u mean ba..
Wads past is past le..

For me now..
Will believe in this in rs..
改得了一时, 改不了一世
Wad matters is to love the person for who he/she is..
Even though how much changes the person does..
He/she is eventually still the original person..

Labels: I m sry for everything i had done..

5:01 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..bored bored bored..
tats wad i can say..

First of all..
Today went to sch.. for Chem pract..
end up become dry lab..
So sian..
Den some stupid person wan stay for english..
Almost cant keep awake sia..
After 3 hrs of Chem le still need go boring english..
But quite ok la..
Little ppl..
So can talk alot..
After tat went to it with tat stupid person..
Still say noe de place..
Walk 1 round before finding the stupid food centre..
Den ate le went walk walk around the area..
Den i went home..
Heng i bo chinese..
If not i sure die there le..
Bored to death..

Slp all the way on the bus..
So song around 1 hr liddat..
Tat got this fking fat women sit beside me..
Kns dam fking squeezy la
Heng she just sit i go down bus le..
Den reach my hse the bus stop..
Super heavy rain..
So jun la..
I bo bring umbrella den rain..
Got bring den mai rain..
Wth lor..
After rain smaller den i went home..
1st thing lie on bed n slp le..
Haha..
Tats like kinda my day ba..

Hmm..now to get into matters..
I feel dam guilty to coz they 3 person the frenship to be come like this..
I just hope i just din appear in the 1st place..
They are really innocent de..
They oso din expected tat helping us will push u to a corner..
I just hope u understand ba..
Its ur frens for so many yrs now..
U should noe them better ba..

Hmm..maybe they tot we would turn out like ken n hanisah liddat..
9 mths le.. still happy..
although they started frm total strangers..
U should rmb who get them together ba..
But things din turn out tat way for us ba..
But it doesnt matter now ba..
As long as u r happy..
They r happy too ba..

For now..I m just gonna lead my normal life again ba..
AND THE WORST THINGS IS..
HOW COME ALL MY FRENS ALL ATTACHED OR GOING TO BE ATTACH 1..
ARGHHH..SO UNFAIR..
JK..
U already had my fair share..
Those tat r attached..All the best u guys..
Those who r getting attach..folo ur heart ba..
Wad u see is just wad is physical..
Wad matter most is the inside..

From:PHD Kevin(But fail in own rs=x)..

Labels: When is my turn coming again?

1:24 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..played game the whole nite..
coz couldnt sleep..
but now gotta go to sch for science pract coz O's pract is coming le..
hmm..
nth much to say ba..
left speechless le..
just read her blog..
since she made things clear..
i will too..

To Mich:
1stly..ur frens dint meant to set u up..
I already said many times..
I seek for their help..
Coz i noe u wun meet me..
Hope u understand..

I noe frm start u din like me..
I just wanted try to it out..
To see if u would develop feelings..
Instead u develop more hatred towards me..
Maybe u r right ba..nth i did touched ur heart..
All of it just too common ba..
N there isnt fate..
I just gotta accept the fact tat all these while its always been a 1 sided love ba..
Even so..
Thx for acting with me..
Giving me so much happiness during the times we r together..
It may be the worst times in ur life..
But being with u was the best in mine ba..
Sry for everything especially ur time..tats the only thing i can do now..
I already said to u le..
I wun do anything stupid..
U should i noe i mean wad i say ba..
If not..It means i wun try to chase u back..
Tats all..
Seriously..all these while..all i wan is for u to be happy..
Tried to hang on to it..coz i think i could improve things..
By trying to change myself..
But eventually..I m stil I..
So i learnt my lesson ba..

Since u find a guy u really like..
Stay happy with him forever ba..
I oso feel happy for u..
No point having u but not ur heart ba..
Wish u guys all da best..
N if u guys still wan me this fren..
I m always willing to

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For now..i will just concentrate on my coming O's ba..
Hopefully..I find the 1 tat is fated for me 1 day ba..
Okie..tats all for this post..
Gonna get rdy for sch le..

8:54 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..just back frm outside..
Den cant slp..haiz..
Went out drink with fren..
Den talk abt stuff..
After tat went home liao..
Nth much..
Thx for accompanying me drink..

I very useless hor..
Want to 1 mth le..
I still brooding over the same thing..
Haiz..
Is it really true tat love really require fate only?
Even though u gave it all ur heart it still wun work out?
I really dun noe..
Really confused..

Nobody noes how i m feeling rite now..
Everyone else time is passing fast as they r in fantasy..
While mine is crawling slowly..
I really nth to look forward to sia..
Looking at those small kids on the road..
I hope i could be just like them..
Nth to stressed abt..
So carefree..

I can say i m jealous of everyone else enjoying life now..
But i had my fair share of it last time..
It was really great..
Best time in my life..
When times r great..
People just dun realise how lucky they r..
Wait till its all gone..
Den they think back..
But its just too late..

Tmr i think i should start studying le..
Even though i noe i cannot make it in time le..
But i try ba..

Labels: I really hope i can just tell u how i feel..

3:36 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

To aiai..
*I CANNOT EMO*

Hahaa..
Decided on sth yst..
I think only 1 person noes it..
Yeah tat is my sis E..wahaha
It seems impossible la..
But i decided to gib it a try lor..
Who noes right?
Nth is impossible rite..

Hmm..aiai say cannot be emo..
Wad should i write ar..
*thinking thinking*
OHOH..
Later going playing pool..
Should be fun ba..
Long time no challenge le..
Later going play with a pro player sia..
Abit excited..
Not really scared..
50% chance of winning..
*either lose or win nia ma..just y 50/50*
ok la..this topic not nice to talk..
*changing topic*

Wad i hab been doing the last few days..
Actually..just slacking la..
Nth much oso..
Everyone else seems like having their fantasy period of their life now..
While i m just opposite..
Life is fair ba..
Got ups n downs..
Tat time i having mine..
The rest like not having..
Tats y la..
Nvm la..1 day i will hab mine again..
All i got to do now is hope lor..
Hope tat it would work out lor..
My hopes..

Ok la..
Post till here for now..
MY lunch is back..
*runs off to lunch*

Labels: If i have a wish..I will wish my hopes come thru..

3:48 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Today was a boring day..
If u were wondering wad i did today..
All i can tell u is..
Slp,Eat n slack...
Haiz..exams so near..
Yet i still cant get myself to study..
Y is it liddaT?
Is it becoz all my hopes n dreams r gone?
Nth to aim forward to really..
I noe studies n all is all for my own good only..
But the truth is..I m a hopes n dreams motivated person..
If u noe me well u should noe ba..

Dunno y the wound feels more pain this week..
If feels as though i m strength less the whole week..
I tot i had already survive thru the hardest..
But i think the pain has just begin..
To stop n think..
My life is almost perfect..
I had almost everything ppl dream to hab..
But it still feels incomplete..

Maybe last time when it was incomplete..
Tat was the time it was the most complete..
Been thinking this week..
Alot of things can be avoided..
There was a save for her n me..
But when i was with her..
I was blinded ba..
Went thru some old vids n pics..
Flashback was really nonstop..
I oso realise i was really lucky last time..
I was like a ugly duckling tat wants to be with a swan..
Y must ppl always realise things after they hab lost it?
Would there be a second chance for ppl that feels remorseful?

1st time in my life i m really feeling emo..
Always wanted to feel how was it like..
Now i understand le..
The feeling of having a painful heart throughout the day..
Is really bad..
I really hab alot of things to tell her..
But cant find the chance to..
Haiz..

Aiya..wads the point of brooding over all these..
For now..all i can do is to believe in this phrase..
"Wad meant to be mine will be mine"
I will will believe tat till my last breath of life ba..
Even though thinking back nxt time..
I may think i m kinda dumb..
But the times we hab been together..
Will nv be forgotten..
Although it wasnt very long..
But to think of it..
We hab been thru so many thing tat some ppl wun even go thru their whole time together..

Ok ba..let me emo till here for now..
If any1 bother to read..
Thx for reading..

Labels: hope to get u back 1 day..

7:48 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmM..feeling down now..
i dunno y too..
Wad should i do?
Im very stressed up..
Although i may not seem so frm the outside..
But frm the inside my head really wan to explode le..
Whole day i hab been pondering over her..
Was i really tat bad tat i dint deserve her love?
Even though the past cant be reverse..
I kinda regretted all the steps i moved wrong..
I really cant feel my soul nowadays..
Like abit lifeless liddat..
Sometimes do stupid stuff i oso dunno wad i m doing..

Wad should i do?
My heart still beats for her..

Labels: I m missing u badly

11:47 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Just back frm edmund hse..
Went out with Ken, Daniel, Eugene, Riovee, Duane, Gabriel n Edmund yst..
Its was kinda like Riovee's Bday celebration..
Kinda fun..
As usual..i was late..so met them while they were playing pool at amk..
Played awhile too..as usual..
This week record sia..7 days pool non stop..wan POK le..
After tat pool met up with those tat nv go play pool..
Den went to Botak Jones at somewhere at braddell..
Soso only la..nth special..
Celebrated most of Riovee's Bday there..
Den went to Edmund hse after tat..
Duane n Gab went home after awhile..Den de rest ton..
They play mahjong..Den i play com n psp..
Den after tat all sat down n talk abt stuff ba..
Quite fun la..they r quite a frendly group..

Now at home le..n need go sch for remedial at 1.30pm..siao liao la..
Dunno can even wake up anot sia..sian..
Really wan to study..
Hopefully i can get my mind to focus ba..
Wad they say is true..
I should look forward instead of backwards..
But even my body already moving forward..
My heart is still back there..

To her:
glad that u r happy now..hope u 2 all the best..n study hard for ur exam..
*i m jealous of u guys* hope u still treat me as a fren ba..i m sry for all i had done wrong in the past..hope u forgive me ba..

Labels: Cant stop thinking back..

9:56 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

HmM.. havent post for so many days..
Been doing lots n lots of thinking this few days..
Althought frm outside wounds looks as if it is healing..
But frm deep within..
I think wounds r getting deeper only..
Every single day..
I try to distract myself frm thinking abt her..
But end up its just a temporary thing to do..
Haiz..

Last few days..i went out with ken..
It was fun..but still cant it off my mind..
Tried almost everything le..
2 weeks has passed..
truthfully i m still missing her..
Every single day i have flashback of our past..
To think of it..
Many be there were alot of things i could hab done to made it better..
But its too late now..
But.. i really got 1 big qn in mind..
Hope she could ans me..
Was i a very bad bf?

I think she is happy with him now..
which is a very gd thing..
no matter how bad u hate me..
i still hope u all the best..
n sry for the things i did wrong..
hope u would forgive me..
1 last thing..
i meant all the things i said to u..

For now..
Exams is coming..
To be honest..
I hab no confident at all..
But i dun wan to fail again..
Haiz..
Dunno wad to do..
Cant get my mind to study..
Too much things inside..
Going to explode liao..

Ok ba.. post till here..

i wan thx all those tat r by my side while i m down..i really appreciate it..

Labels: Confused.. HELP

9:33 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

About me..

Kevin
born on e 28 of dec
18 this year
10th Squad Captain

WishList..

Simple life.
A new beginning
To Be with Her 4eva
<3 deardear
Pass all my module

What i like..

Sleep
Eat
n Sleep
Pool

SAY IT OUT!!

Friends..

Mich
Er_z
Hanisah
Hx aka Aiai
Mr Funny & Little Miss Giggles
Moo Mooo

HISTORY

July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
April 2008
July 2008