It's really painful to say goodbye to
someone that you don't want to let go
but its even more painful to ask
someone to stay if they never wanted to
stay.

It's a sad thing in life is when you
meet someone who means a lot to you,
only to find out in the end that it
was never meant to be and you just
have to let go.

Life doesn't hurt until you have time
to yourself to think about how things
have changed, who you've lost along the
way, and how much of it is your fault.

Let me ruin your life, let me break
your heart, then I'll ask you why we
can't be friends. Let me rip your world
into little pieces, let me destroy who
you thought you were, and then I'll ask
if we can be friends.

It's like once you've been hurt, you're
so scared to get attached again. you
have this fear that every person you
start to fall for, is just going to
break your heart again.

The hardest thing about knowing you
don't love me is that you spent so
much time pretending that you did.

You really know you love someone when
all you want is for them to be happy,
even if that means that you are not a
part of it.

Sometimes , no matter how long, or how
much you love someone, they will never
love you back and somehow you have to
learn to be okay with that.

I'm holding on to something that used
to be there hoping it will come back,
knowing it won't.

There' s always that one special person
that no matter what they do to you, you
just cant let them go.

5:44 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Haha..wad a nice few days i got..
Dunno wad to do now la..
I m being cornered with myself once again..

i already regretted everything le..
those i can pay back de..
i will pay back
those i cant de..
i oso dunno how i pay back..
i tot u noe me well ba..
but maybe u just dint..
we dint noe each other well frm the start like u said..
m i such a hatered to u?
if u doubt wad we hab benn thru together..
i oso cannot do anything..
believe me or not..
it was true ba..

for not paying u back..
i admit..its my fault..
my inability to pay u back..
i m already digging for the money now..
so wad if my family is well to do..
it isnt me tat is well to do..

aiya say so much u still hate me tat much..
wad should i do?
disappear for earth den u dun hate me le?
sometimes i just hate myself for loving u so much..
too many things in my mind..
i just dunno how to express it out..

i lost u le..
i lost all my hopes..
2 mths plus has pass le..
n the more u hate me..
if i can undo the past..
i wun do things the same way again..
i din noe loving a person too much will make the person hate u..
i really din mean it..
i m really sry..
wad else can i say right?
only tat 1 word

i now already nth to look forward to le..
u think i living happy now?
u r wrong den..
not even happy..
i m just trying to pass time fast so i dun think abt anything..
me n her? we r just frens..
dun nid u say..she oso wun accept me de..
i already lost all my confidence tat u gave me le..
being with u was a great thing for me though..
it shows me the ups n downs of life
n wad is life
rather den just being some1 useless

so now..if i return u the money asap..
i dun hope u will forgive or wad..
i just hope we will break even ba..
all i wan to say i already said..
i really meant no harm..
its up to u to believe
hope we still can be friends..
like wad u said when we broke up ba..

Labels: the souless me..lost of my confidence..

5:03 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..its been like a week since i last blog..
So..wad hab i been doing for the past 1 week?
Playing maple..

This week hab been good n bad for me..
Bad things 1st..
I finally noe the true colours of some ppl..
Good is..
There isnt anything good anyway..
Everything is still wad it is in real life..

I really like how the way we r now..
But i oso feel like taking it futher..
But will it be like last time?
The futher i go..
The futher u drift away frm me?
I oso dunno how la..
My life now..
I hab nth to wry abt..
Eat slp n play game..
Thats all ba..
Still finding job..
So for now..
I better make use of free time..

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Y must u treat me like this?
Do i really deserve this?
I really wan to know..

Labels: So when r u ready?

7:57 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Hmm..right now..
I am at 1 of the service apartment @ orchard..which ken manage to get for 3 days..
Finally i have time to post..
At home..
I m too busy with the game till i hab no time to even post my blog..
Firstly..thx ken for inviting me coz its a nice place..
Secondly..i had fun with u guys..
Thx for always being with me guys..

Hmm..Lets start posting..
After think for these few days..
I realise tat only her accepted my physical defections..
Who dun wan to hab a perfect partner rite?
I can only blame myself for being like this ma..
I still rmb she always told me not to look at my physical defections..
But the fact is..
Everyone is looking at it..
I already tried my best to act as i din realise..
But i really cant..
Is it really so hard to find someone else tat doesnt mind?
Or almost everybody mind?
I m really confused..

To her..
I really dunno wad to do now?
It really seems tat we r drifting further away..
U used to tell me ur prob..
Now u dun even tell le..
Even i ask, u oso say its privacy..
I really wan to chase u de..
But u keep running..
Not even giving me a chance to prove myself..
U really dun wan me to chase u?
Or is there other reasons?
Can u tell me pls..
Maybe u r testing me..
But I really dun noe wads ur meaning..
If u like some 1 else or wad..can at least tell me k?
I will understand de..

Lastly..
I feel very useless..
Everyone thinks i m rich?
The fact is..
I m not the 1 tat is rich..
I cant even help my dear sis..
I really wan to..
But i dun hab the ability..
I m really sry sis..

Money money money..
Y is money always the prob..
i really wonder..

Now..I m going to slp ba..
Long day tmr..

Labels: Is it so hard to just see u? imu

3:46 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..
Just gonna do a short post before i slp..

Yst wad my official last day of my exams..
But guess wad..
I m not even feeling happy..
Sry ken for treating u with a black face at pool just now..
It wasnt abt the game..
Its just there is this thing in my head tat is making it heavy..

After i came home i went zak..
1st time i dc..
I forgot i using wireless..
Den 2nd time..
Kill finish..
But den loot bu dao helm..
Sob..
Too many unhelm de..
Den only 2 helm..
Sian..
Nvm ba..
Pot usage very little nia..
Can go in again de..
Hopefully i will tio nxt time..
Ok ba.. off to slp le..
Just now in zak keep wan doze off..
Sry i loot bu dao wor..

Labels: The person isnt me right?

5:13 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Hmm..Kinda long din hab a serious post le..
Finally i hab time to do tat..
I dunno y..
Since my 2nd last paper finished..
I hab been so busy tat i din hab time to slow down n rest..
And i think we hab been drifting apart..
I still wish there was sch...
Coz for the last mth of sch..
U were an encouragement for me to go..
Haha..
Y ppl must liddat 1 ar..
When got sch..
They think sch not good..
When sch end..
Den they start to miss sch..
Haiz..

This few days..
I hab been playing pool almost everyday..
Cant find anything else to do lehz..
Dam sian la my current life..
N i still dun understand 1 thing..
Y most of my frens hate their ex so much till they dun wan to talk to them?
I really wonder y..
Is there really no space for frenship after breaking up?

Hmm..
I feel tat me n her really get along well when we r together in rl..
But once we chat on something else..
Its like strangers liddat..
Wad should i do?
I noe u hab been hurt till u dun trust guys le..
But not guys r liddat ma..
I admit i m not perfect too..
In fact i m far frm perfect..
But I just really need u to gib me a chance..
I noe tat u r a person tat pride is impt for u..
But if u wan to really be happy..
I believe pride is just something not impt..

But wad should i do now?
R u really not rdy for rs?
Or just too scared to get hurt again?
Hope u would just tell me wads in the heart..

If u wan to noe y after exams le i still so stressed up..
Coz i really wan u..
But i dunno wad u wan..

Ok..enuff of my emo post..
I guess most of the reader dun even understand wad i m saying..
Or dun even noe who i m talking abt?

Labels: Y cant u let me love u? i really wonder o.O

11:57 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

haha.. posting in the middle of the night..

Today..
almost pool the whole day..
And still..i cant win my teacher..
Jialat la..
Standard not there yet la..
After pool i went for family dinner at club..
It was nice..

Den login maple played awhile..
Den now i slacking le..
Today din get to talk to her much..
Kinda miss ya u noe..
Hope to talk to u more tmr..

Now exams almost over for me..
I feel so empty..
Wad should i do now?
Can some 1 tell me?

Labels: 我是真心的在追你., 我没逼你

12:53 AM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..posting to burn some time off..

Firstly..yst alot of things happened..
And i had a great time with my classmates..
But i too lazy to go in detail..
Later at nite when i post i will k..

Now i at home thinking wad to do..
Later meeting Ken they all at town ba..
Abit sian..
Coz she isnt there..
I guess she is hard go call out ba..
haha..
Its ok anyway..
I aint going to force her to do anything she doesnt wish to..
So all depends on my luck whether she wants or not..

What to post lehz now..
My mind suddenly empty again..
Nvm..
Post till here for now..
Later conti...

Labels: I wish i could read ur mind..

4:12 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

hmm..posting once again..
nth much to post anyway..

Hmm..Today went sch for ss paper..
Quite ok la..
1st time i finish the whole ss paper...
But i think i write rubbish..

Now at home playing maple..
Hahaha.
Sian..
Feeling like playing pool sia..

Tmr going out with my classmate..
Maybe can find some time to play pool
WAhahaha.=x

Hmm..Really nth much to post sia..
Cant wait for tmr..
Many reasons due..
Wahahha..

Tats all for today..
There will be more tmr..

5:31 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

Haha..long time no post le..
Wanted to post yst..
But was too tired..
Dint really slept well the last few days..
So its like accumlated slp..
Ok..
Where should i start.
I think frm Yst ba..

Yst was physics paper..
Pretty confident abt the paper..
All the qn was very general..
Non of it was like in detail of any chap in physics..
The day before physics..
I went for poa paper 2 n den when for remedial..
But i was tired..
So i left 1/2 way..
Actually wanted go home, bath n study..
End up sleep all the way..
Den din even studied..
But the paper was ok..=x

After physics went with my classmates Jas, Px & Lynn to fep..
Den ate subway for Breakfast/lunch..
rofl..
After tat went walk around awhile..
Den Jas n Px went for ear piercing..
Top part of the ear tat 1..
Den they decided so long..
Dotz..
Den pierce liao..
The 2 like no feeling 1..
Dotz rite..

After tat went walk walk..
Girls as usual shopping..
Spend around 3 hrs there..
Lol..
Den after tat we decided go play pool lor..
Px went home after shopping..
So Jas, Lynn & me went lucky plaza play pool..

WHO NOES SO JUN..
Saw Ken & Hanisah down there..
SOMEMORE THE NXT TABLE SOMEMORE..
Lol..
SG is really small sia..
So we talk talk..
Den we decided go bugis play pool coz after 4 lucky plaza table not worth the price..
But Lynn gtg..
Den went pool fusion play..
Play for quite awhile..
Some 1 got improvement sia..
Thx to my good teaching..jkjk..

Den after tat..
We went to eat at bugis mos..
Den eat ice cream after tat..
Some 1 dun wan eat sia..
At the end still eat..
I win..=)

Den we all go home frm there..
But we left bugis at 9pm+
But i reach home at 1.30am
rofl..
Tats all for today..
I enjoyed my day yst..
But today was boring..

Labels: When will u be mine?

10:18 PM

Kev;
HITSUGAYA TOUSHIROU.

About me..

Kevin
born on e 28 of dec
18 this year
10th Squad Captain

WishList..

Simple life.
A new beginning
To Be with Her 4eva
<3 deardear
Pass all my module

What i like..

Sleep
Eat
n Sleep
Pool

SAY IT OUT!!

Friends..

Mich
Er_z
Hanisah
Hx aka Aiai
Mr Funny & Little Miss Giggles
Moo Mooo

HISTORY

July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
April 2008
July 2008